Lately, I've been feeling kind of like a lost puppy. I had this vision a few months ago of how my life would be right now. Since that golden ideal formed in my mind, it's done nothing but divert and crumble and fall apart. Or at least, that was what I thought. As a result of things not going exactly according to plan (i.e. I don't have a killer job lined up to start the day after graduation and my own place ready to be moved into and a puppy all picked out) I began to think that I was a giant failure. That somehow, despite my hard work and passion for what I want to do, I messed up. I did something wrong or didn't do enough or just plain failed.
Well, over the last few days and a whole lot of stress, I have realized that thinking I'm a failure is just ridiculous and dwelling on this inaccurate thought was doing nothing but make me, in essence, fail. By not believing I could do what I wanted, worked, and set out to do, I was disabling myself from that even being a possibility.
Some of my favorite seniors in my department at our senior luau last night
After talking with some people in the industry that I really admire and one of my advisers who I can never thank enough for all he's done for me, and discussing with some of the amazing, brilliant classmates who are in the same position I am, I realized something.
All those dreams I have, they didn't just go away, and all the work I put into them doesn't just disappear or not matter anymore. It matters just as much as when I put the effort in. The difference is - I stopped being bold. I stopped believing that I could do what I wanted because I faced a little rejection.
So not me. So here's the thing. Be bold, people. If you want something, do everything you can to make it happen. And if it doesn't happen, keep trying. Keep working, and don't take no for an answer. Being bold is believing in yourself. Being bold is having the confidence that all the work you put in does matter. Being bold is being willing to show people that you want to make a difference for them, that you are the right person to make the difference they are dying to see.
I have done some bold things this week, and I feel better with every bold thing I do. I feel the strength coming back to me and the dreams becoming vivid again. It's all within my reach. I just have to grab it. And I'm willing to build whatever ladder or contraption I need to to get me there.
What are you doing to be bold?